Archive for November, 2009

The Wisdom of John

Sunday, November 29th, 2009

At the Leftovers event this Sunday we prepared brown paper bag lunches to pass around the city. In them were ham and turkey sandwiches, juice boxes, chips, and fruit. Bill and I had to leave a bit early, but Ali suggested we bring two sack lunches with us in case we encountered anyone who could use a lunch on our walk home. So we did. Being that we live across from Petco Park, we decided to stop there first.

At first glance, the park felt pretty empty. This is a first, I thought, as we walked on. We rounded the restaurant of El Vitral, when I spotted a bike and a cart full of someone’s belongings. I pointed at the bike and motioned for Bill to stop. This cart full of blankets, clothes,  a sleeping bag–this was a sign of someone living on the streets.

Sure enough, we meet John and Big Don sitting on the bench.

To be honest, I wanted to do a quick hand-off and leave. But God had other plans. As we handed them the lunches, John stood up and shook our hands. He then spent the next 10 minutes talking to us like we were old friends.

He looked Bill dead in the eye and asked calmly, ” What do you, me, and everyone else have in common?”

Bill paused for a minute and responded, “The love of God.”

John smiled. “Well, yes. But something that you and me and the rest of us have in common…is that we are sinners.”

I froze in my spot. Here I was selfishly wanting to get home–planning on handing off food and leaving–when God used John to speak to us.

John went on, “It says right in the bible, you and me, all of us- we are all sinners.”

I look over at Big Don, who had already started in on the sandwich. I look over at Bill who is smiling from ear to ear. And suddenly I felt the peace of God among us.

John thanked us for the food. He shook our hands again and said “God Bless” over and over again. He then affirmed, “The next time you talk to a homeless guy, I want you to point that out. You, me, all of us– we are all sinners.”

Then he took us around the corner and showed us his belongings.

He pointed at his bike. “This is my bike. This is my sleeping bag.” He starts to point at his belongings, the stuff in his life. His life that filled up an 8 square foot space.  Suddenly, a rush of humility came over me. John, in his short economy of words, summed up the gospel to us. He who was in need, gave.

The next time I see a cart full of blankets, a sleeping bag, and clothes. I will remember, the one thing we all have in common. We are all sinners. It is what you, me and everyone else has in common. And God made it so that we could be reconciled with Him. That is the gospel message summed up by our friend, John.

Thanksgiving Uprooted

Tuesday, November 24th, 2009

When my husband, Bill, and I moved to San Diego in March, we left friends and family behind. Granted the move was a whopping 60 miles from home, still my sisters, brother and mom are no longer a stone’s throw away– I don’t have the luxury of a last minute trip to the mall or an impromptu lunch with my family anymore.

So, Thanksgiving this year feels a little funny. In a kind of uprooted sense. This will be the first year we will be spending a traditionally family-based holiday with friends in North Park and not at home with “my girls. ”

I have to say, I’m really okay with it. In fact, I’m really excited about the change.  And the reason it feels nice is because Citywalk as a church has accomplished a sense of family and community for me. I know that there will be a lot of love, fun, fellowship and decadently good food–and with that formula, you can’t go wrong.

So, though I say I won’t be spending Thanksgiving with family this year, in a way we are. Our new San Diegan family.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! And remember, gratitude is contagious so go spread those germs of gratitude!

The Gift

Monday, November 23rd, 2009

It’s Thanksgiving week. Time to connect or reconnect with family and friends. Time to reflect on life’s blessings. Time to eat exorbitant amounts of amazing food – and curse yourself later.

In his message this past Sunday, Steve recounted a tradition in his family of taking turns around the table expressing gratitude for something or someone in each person’s life. Well, this blog is the table, and I’m currently sitting at it, so here we go…

I’m thankful for Citywalk’s new website and it’s designer, my landlord roommate Damian. He’s put in a lot of hours to give our community a tool that will help us better organize, connect, spread the word, and ultimately live up to our mission of taking hold of and living out the way of Jesus. He even created this blog, where in the future you will enjoy hearing thoughts from a blog team of 6-7 individuals who will regularly impart great wisdom on us all. While they’re looking up “wisdom” on Wikipedia, though, I thought I’d offer up this inaugural blog post as a moment of celebration and gratitude for the role the Citywalk community has played in helping me to have a great year.

In December of 2008, I recall telling a friend that I had a goal for 2009 – not a New Year’s resolution per se, but a vision that I would be able to look back at the year 2009 and forever remember it as the year when something in me changed. You see, in November 2008, I received a gift. It was anonymously given (though I’m crafty and have since been able to deduce the Giver). It was immaterial – no substance or shape, but something that was nonetheless easy to identify and talk about. I couldn’t hold it, but it was the best gift I’ve ever been given: a glimpse at life unencumbered by the worry, self-doubt, fear, and paralysis that had characterized my experience for years. For whatever reason, God saw fit to simply remove those burdens that I always worked, worked, worked to overcome and simply let me rest in The Gift: that storied “peace that passes all understanding.”

Once I’d had a taste, things really never could be the same. Oh yes – the worry, self-doubt, fear, and paralysis all have made repeat attempts to regain control of my outlook. But because of The Gift, there was no way I was going down without a fight – not after I’d realized that life doesn’t have to be lived in paralysis. Not after I’d seen fears melt away and watched myself trust other people with abandon. Not after being able to make a confident personal decision without second-guessing for the first time in my life.

Nope, I had seen the light and wouldn’t be satisfied any longer with my timid, selfish, isolated response to life anymore! As I peered into 2009, I was certain that, finally, I would remember a year for more than the personal tragedies it encompassed. Wouldn’t you know that prediction has come true!

This isn’t a boast. Like I said, it was The Gift – I had nothing to do with bringing in a shift in perspective or attitude. And I know that not everyone has experienced an amazing 2009. I’ve watched many friends wrestle with very real struggles that came their way – things they had nothing to do with bringing in, either. I saw hearts broken, marriages fall apart, lives lost to sickness and brutal violence, and scores of other trials and hardships come and go.

The fact is, this past year had its challenges and personal tragedies – just like other years. But it also came with a community of close friends who shared a vested interest in seeing one another live well. That’s you, Citywalkers. Being a part of this family of Christ-followers has encouraged and enabled me to take The Gift and make that perspective change permanent. To dwell daily in the peace that passes understanding. To trust recklessly, decide boldly, and live with hope. That’s what this community has done for me.

When I moved to San Diego four years ago, I knew I was coming to build a church community. I never foresaw how much that community would build me up. But it has. And when I think about the upcoming year, I can’t help but be excited for the potential we have as a community to make a similar impact in the lives of so many people. Who is God bringing to our doorstep right now that we can pour into? Who needs The Gift today?

Here’s to being thankful for a great year – and while I’m at it, I’ll just go ahead and cast a vision that 2010 will be even better. Believe it!